Sunday, March 29, 2009
It's been a month since I've updated my blog.
& yes, there's SO much that has happened. From birthdays,to hangouts, events, issues and many more.
Life's been rather tight lately for me, tight on cash in fact. too much quality time spent, that requires most of the CASH INFLOW.
Life's been so fanciful, and all that about being 19 is somewhat happening for me right now. & I'm pretty happy about it.
However, lately, the life I see IN FRONT of me is rather hazy. I don't really know what I want. & being tight in cash, I'm trying to find a job that can give me experience that is new and is related to whatever I'm studying. But it just seemed so difficult to cope with all this at times.
Even relationship issue is kicking in. 19 years seemed impossible but I made it possible for myself. & these days,people do not understand why.
So they question about my individuality. & when I told them, they all say it's wrong. It is wrong, & I know it. But what my heart says, is it wrong too?
So life just revolves around education, family, friends, people, and the Earth. & I'm thinking hard, am I doing what I'm suppose to do? sometimes when you think whatever you're doing is right, other sees it as something wrong. & when you use your logic to talk it out, they rebute you with their logic. AND THE CYCLE GOES ON AND ON AND ON.
So when does it stop? I'm thinking so much lately. & I really want to make it right this time. To get on back to the path that is designated for me. To live life like the way I want it to be, and to know that I'll not have any regrets.
I believe many people do stop and ponder about such issue at times. & they go back to where they are from, and take a good look from a different angle, and THEN they realised that there are other alternatives.
So be it friends, family , people; I want to make it right everytime from now. It is not possible to be there everytime, but I want to try. & make it possible to be right for myself everytime too.
I'm not being emo here, but I'm trying to sort certain issues I've been thinking about lately.
& photobucket was taking WAY TOO LONG to allow me to upload pictures. So for now,this post will be picture-less. so sorry about that!Labels: Sometimes I don't quite get it.
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