Wednesday, January 31, 2007
SERIOUSly, i think this kind of life - wakin up at 10,12 plus, eat breakfast lunch n dinner,watch the tele but nothing else. laze around. ISNT FUN -.- it's freeking pathetic! this is what i go through EVERYDAY while most of my buddies go to school,work and have all the fun in the world.
i don't know about this. this is too much! i just felt like i'm dying, and i know it's my fault. Not being able to wake up early to do what i wanna do. not havin friends to go out with, nor to even chat up with? i don't know. ridiculous?
and i can finally come online cos the net's down recently. brother's trying to fix the router thingy, but was unsuccessful. this trip online may be the last time again. haiz.
nothing really much happened recently. done with CNY shopping. CNY clothes are my poly clothes. so it's like killing two birds with a stone. i've gotten so many things that i've wanted! so i'm pretty happy about it. gotten a new bag,wallet,clothes,jeans! =) pretty happy about my jeans cos i finally have something that i can really adore ! haa. cos it's the most comfortable jeans i've ever worn .pathetic?! LOL.
and yes, many things happened at home.i've finally done my chores! clean the whole cupboard full of plates n pans, and my display cupboard lol. cleaned all the DUST. sneezed till my nose dropped off ! lol. pathetic..
and my hse has finally a cordless phone! haa. and gotten my new LAPTOP. YEAH all geared up for poly. not because my mum has struck rich but cos i'm gonna go through the stage of a new life soon. and soon, i tell u ,we'll all be in our own world, with a whole new circle of friends.. so i take this chance to "warn " you guys. cos it's pretty scary. i've seen it coming, and i know it'll happen in a flash once we've gotten our results. goodbye all my 4E2 peeps.
it's rather sad to know that friends who said they'll go poly with you,but has changed their minds and those who should go to JC has changed their choices to go poly instead. Life's unpredictable. and i knew it, but what can i say? i wish everyone a good future ahead? cos it's the most scary part of life now, to change gears, to change ur life and where u wanna head into the future. My wish for all now is to pray hard, and i hope that everyone will be blessed and is happy with their choices? i don't know..
So these few days, i've reflected. knowing that my "holiday" is comin to an end soon, i've gotten to see transformation in many. people who seemed to be sure,uncertain. i don't know..
kinda confused lately as well,regardin the poly courses that i think i can make it in? lol. i've thought over it. i've only business school to choose. cos i dont fit in the other schools. so it's quite scary.. but thinking about the courses,it may be a risk..but i'll try no matter what,cos it determines my future? the diploma that i'm gonna graduate with?
so it's pretty painful to think about all these during this period. with so many things going through my mind. not having a job,not being able to have a healthy lifestyle like before, and praying hard to get into the course i really want to..
so i'm quite sad, to not being able to talk to my friends like chat up.. not being able to hang out with my cousins.. or maybe it's al my fault? not havin the initiative? i don't know..
till then,
~jo
10:25 PM
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