Friday, September 17, 2004
Todae...i've finally thought about my decision of whether to quit or not to....Maybe it's my first action tat brought my misery to happen...I joined because of my frends...People tend to get excited...and then thought it will be fun...But i just never thought of the consquences if i continue in the CCA...I never think about myself...But all i did was acted rashly...I learnt my lesson...And hope that Miss Ong won't be sad about it...Thanks for her teachings for the past 4 weeks..And concern trainning me to balance on one leg...Sorry Miss Ong...And thanks to my frends who told me what to do...Edwina,i must say im real sorry that i quit...It's not really that im a chicken now...Sorry...
And of course not just voicing that point...Coz someone just couldnt get the idea whether she had changed or not...Being quiet aside doesnt mean to show that you've changed...But it was the actions that counts...What i wanted to say here is that i hope that the person whom i refering to,knows that is herself...In your blog,you said we were trying to be nice...YEs we did,cos we pity you...We gave it a thought...We didn't want you to lose so many frends...But we lose a frend,it doesnt matter...But you said that we wanted you to be in our group...We didnt sae that at all you know?MAybe becos of our actions that mislead you to think about it...But you were totally wrong...I thought you were trying to change girl...But i've seen it coming wrongly...Do think before you say anything...Cos due to your that short speech,i've changed views about you already...Like the above post,i've learnt to think before i act...Otherwise i'll lost somethings which are important...And even hurt some people...
So please,change your attitude will you?I hope you will really spent sometime thinking thoroughly...And mind your thoughts...Cos it will change alot of things...In your life...
5:36 AM
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
I've been thinking if i should leave the club or stay behind...I've been real stressed up,asking frends,asking family...But some said yes,some said no...I have no idea what to do...Maybe Inline Hockey should remain as an exercise to me...I couldn't balance on my legs properly...Trying to learn new skills are tougher than i thought,ms ong oso said that i must have the basic skills:balancing on one leg...Which i don't have...I dont have the time to practice...Exams are coming real fast..I'm trying to catch up on the past 3\4 year,for this year of sec 2...My mother,she gave me moral support...I should choose wisely on my decision...I don't wanna be a baby anymore...My family's having a hard time...REAL STRESSEd up...My parents will be divorcing next month,mayb next year...My elder bro wanna study over at Uk's university...My 2nd bro will be upgrading himself in study too...I,struggling to do my best...And make sure i can support my mother...She sometimes do complain,worry,that nobody will be taking care of her...She feels lonely...All these,what she wanted,was to see how her kids grow up,be man and women...Give her joy,like grandchildren....I hope you frends,understand how i feel...It's not im chicken,it's not that way...I hope you guys understand me better...I'm different...
10:23 AM
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